Alexander Foxguard

Hanyo of the Ruby Sea

Smuggler, The Hound,
and Okuri-Inu Mutt

Trigger Warning For All Stories Below:

Alcholism, Abuse, Dark Themes, Crime, and More.

Childhood

Sakura Petal's Fall:1. Mom said I should start writing how I feel in this book. Told me that when I am angry I should just write. But... I'm not angry all the times. She is silly.5. She hasn't been feeling too good again... She promised to take me to see the sakura petals for the spring festival this year. We didn't go last year because she was sick. I think she's feeling better this time, I know how happy the petals make her. Reminds her of dad. I wish he came around more...25. We finally went to see the petals... I wish we had never gone... The other priestess said they are going to take care of me now... they won't let me see my mom anymore. She was coughing up blood before she fell down when we went to see the petals...

It Wasn't My Fault:
100. I don't know where I am anymore... I ran away when dad... when he... He told me it was my fault mom died... then he...tears smudged the page. My eye stopped bleeding. A man in the next village over took me. Said he'd get me cleaned up, and... now I'm on this ship. It smells of rats and dirty water... He said if I was good he would let me out... but that I would have to clean. At least he let me keep this book. It's all I have left... and my locket.1057. It's been 8 years since I've been allowed on land. I tried to escape two years after he took me... He told me I had to call him my father from now on... I hate him... he reeks of booze and never bathes. At least I don't have to sleep in the decks below anymore. The crows nest never smells at least, and I can keep it clean of the bird shit. It's the only safe space for me... away from all the men who pry at me now that I'm older. Don't they know I hate my body anyways? Why would I want them to look at me? I don't want to look at me.

Life Now Upon the Seas

I Finally Earned Respect:
1200: I couldn't take it anymore... I made sure to give him enough booze to make him and the crew pass out. Then I gave him what he deserved. I knew when the crew woke up they'd toss me overboard, so I took those closest to him as well. This ship needs to be cleaned of the filth once and for all. I already have the women on my side, they get treated just as bad. I won't have that not that I am captain. I will never let anyone tell me what to do on my ship... ever. EVER again.

The Seas Still Called Me:
1250: Despite hating it here... I couldn't leave those I had gain respect from. I thought once I kill that bastard I would head for port, and never look at the seas again... But the crew respected me now... looked up to me... I couldn't let another drunken bastard take place. No... my place was at the helm now. I'll be sure to take care of my crew, my people, unlike that man. He will see just how well a woman like me can captain this ship. I will show that you can rule the Ruby Seas without being a piece of shit pig.

The Empire I Built

The People I Built:
3661: It's been years since I've taken helm. The respect I've gained from my people has lead me to great heights. A mutual respect and understand goes a long way compared to violence and terrorizing my crew. Of course, I am not afraid to pull the trigger should one fall out of line with my orders or rules. I don't ask for much from them, they know this. I've finally come to understand myself better since I started to wonder the streets of Kugane more... the underground clubs have enlightened me. I'll be undergoing the surgeons knife when the next full moon comes. I'm excited... but I'm nervous. I've talked to great lengths with the women in my crew, I assured them just because I'm going to become a man does not mean I leave behind the womanhood I have come to know. My first mate assured me she will kick my ass if I stray from my goals.

The Body I Built:
3827: I started to send money to my birth village when I took over the ship several years ago. I hope they don't hate me when I come to recover from my surgery. I have been writting with the shrine maiden who use to train under my mother ever since I was able to send letters... She has assured me that I will be safe there, and that they are more than excited to see me since the day I left... That they are more than happy to take care of me in this vulnerable time... Wanting nothing more than to see my mother's daughter blossom into a strong son... That made me feel better about this trip. It's been fifteen years since I last saw the shrine... the village... my home.

The Companies I Built:
7666: It's been years since I've written... My mother would not be too happy, but I've been busy building my companies from the ground up. It's not easy trying to make connections in the underground... you have to be careful in Kugane. It's not like Limsa where you can call someone an asshat and they will buy you a drink. No... hard work, honor, and trust run in the viens of the ports in Hingashi. Granted... it's been easier since my transition to convince hingans... and even the domans to make deals with me. They don't see me as weak-minded or fragile. I still despise that thought... but I will bite my tongue. Do what I must to ensure my company succeeds, and my crew is prosperous. I promised them that much.

The Future of Unexpected Adventures

The Vixens Hold On Me:
10365: Before I knew it... I had found myself plagued with the thoughts of another. Never thought I would find myself so pathetically at another’s beck and call as I do now. I cannot help myself… I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I haven’t had nerves like this since… Suki…. Worse even. I’ve fallen for the most complicated Viera in the Dori, perhaps even the star. Yet… I don’t mind, no I find the unexpected.,, pleasant. Thrill in the mystery of this woman and her many personas. My tail never ceases when she’s around… annoying as that is… I am scared of how deep I’ve dived in, but like the mountain forests… she beckons me back each time. Grounding me… comforting me… seeing… me. Caring not that I am a broken man who’s not afraid to shed their emotions openly. Not of the scars on my chest nor the ones upon my heart. Do I finally have a chance this time? Will she be afraid to be seen with me? No… this time it has to be different…

The Bonded Pair:
10568: A whole sun’s turn has come and gone since I've met her. Since we first made love beneath the moonlight in blissful confessions. A full turn of the seasons since we first laid eyes upon one another, and now... I get to see those beautiful, forest eyes with golden flakes of sun every night before I slumber. She agreed to finally make our bond ceremonious. A bonding ceremony to officially become life mates. It happened while we were in the spirit realm… after some… events detailed in my last journal. I feel guilty that other friends and family were not there, yet my estranged father was and his first wife officiated. Vianna didn't have her own witnesses either, but I know she doesn't want to make a big ordeal of it all. I try not to think of it as her being ashamed of me... or our relationship, but I still feel guilty to have something I know she wants for herself. I hope in time she will come to see me as her family, of those we surround ourselves with as family. I want to give her what the star has taken from her. A true family that loves and cherishes her just as I do. I learned of my father’s tribes imprinting tradition, and I will wear those bonding marks with pride upon my brow. Marks that she placed upon me herself within the moon's glow. I truly love her, with everything. I will burn the realms of this universe asunder should I have to for her…